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Whatever lahs , life sucks . I spend my time sleeping or watching videos . Cant believe it bahs . I want to get sick , i wonder who will care ? Who will the effort to ask if im well or make the effort to come my house to visit me . I dont think anyone has done it before . Haha! Such a loser . Im not eating much these two days . Thursday morning till night i totally had no mood to eat . Dinner i wanted to skip but scared my mother see why i never eat question me i at 9 eat . I must force myself to eat . You know who terrible it is ? Den friday , i did ate recess but after school direct go home den zzzzzzzzzz . Hahas this is my life from er this thursday ? Yeahs , torturing myself starving has one advantage , which is i can get skinny ? Who knows ? Since no one is going to care , i wont care myself le . Haha ! Fun ? Nvm i dont think he will care much .


Hais , i once had you love and soon it slipped off my hands . Im such a loser . Im unsure of his feelings towards me , sometimes cold sometimes hot . I feel terrible every moment . I which i can vanish from the face of the world . Im having this emotion problem . I feel like crying . Ever since wednesday , i've been crying . Everyday . I remember the days when you sent me the sweet sweet msgs . I regret having to treat you bad . I now only can reminise the moments . If you did have the time to read my blog , could you just go to the post where you were good to me and we really had a fun time . You said that meeting me is a waste of time , you know how much you hurt me . I cant even smile properly . I have to give fake smiles and stuff act as if nothing has happen . I cant you see ! i know you can act like nothing has happen and lead your normal life but i cant , for you i threw many things . I stopped playing bball , i gave up time with bball girls bcuz of you . There is alot of things i cant say here but i dont know whether you know anot .

Bcuz i need to return people money , i've been saving and im glad that i spend lesser now . I can no need care about my stomach and wait till i reach home or get snacks to eat , i only drink water which will help me fill my stomach this is what i do when im hungry . Drink till im totally full . I did it for my dinner . I had no appitite to eat . All i think is regrets , broken promises and how can i mend back those injuries . Hais i'll just end here i think im too nonsense and nobody reads it anyway .