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Hais , im so envious those people that had a boyf or girlf that loves them alot . But now i dont . I used to have one but its gone already . Haha! So cherish your boyf or girlf now . At least the one that you love loves you back . But mine although he say ily but in his heart he dont mean anything . Although we're still together but he no longer loves me anymore . I dont blame him anymore . To me 9month plus is something but to him not anymore . If time could reverse i swear i would love him and cherish him more . I wish i could not cry but tears rolls down my cheeks naturally . All i can hope for is him to be at my side and love me again but i know it would never happen again . 30th october i will always rmb 23:57 . All i can do now is hug the bear he gave me and hope i can stay in my little dream with him loving me all over again and wish this all a nightmare .



To dexter : Sorry , i entered your life and give you troubles non stop . I hope one day you'll be happy . I know you are awaiting for this day to arrive but i dont know when i just dont know . Im happy when im with you but you're not . Sorry ! I got alot to say but i dont know how to say . Sorry , i evaded your life .