Actually today was a good day , but apparently something went wrg .
Today rained quite alot maybe its for me cuz ii also cried as much as them .
After doing class tee shirt , when to 533 to find they all .
Play bball den most of them went home .
Renee , Zhiqin and me went to mac , renee ate only .
After that went to the bustop to send Zhiqin den went to the bridge .
It holds many memories but today was freaking sad .
The weather was cold but no one was dere for me .
I didnt call bbgirls and jolyn cuz i dont want them to worry for me .
But ii called that someone he apparently was playing bball of that sort .
Im truly dissapointed , crying my eyes out but uu could only say don cry .
I was hoping that u would have automactically offered to come find me .
If uu offered but uu didnt come at least ii knew in your heart there's me ,but not anymore .
Computer , family and friends came first .
I was the last of your mind .
But uu know what , uu come first in my mind .
Ii cant any blows anymore .
I wan to stand strong like anyone else but ii cant .
The cold wind and lonely night ii have this year .
The brige have many partners but i didnt have any ,
the moment one couple appear ii would want to cry .
Even those dont have cpl have friends .
Im a BIGBIG LONER .
I dont want to say anymore le ii feel like crying again .
Holding my tear letting it fall on my cheeks sucks , but blood flows down ur wrist rocks !